It's no secret that I'm head over heels in love with nature. And writing. Okay and well a lot of things. I'm a passionate person. But since the time I was a child, I held a deep fascination with nature. I loved it. I loved squatting down to look at a glittery trail a snail… Continue reading Finding Yourself in Nature: A Writer’s Tale
We aren't dying, so we inherently tend not to value our lives. This is the best thing that I have been able to pull from watching chronically ill YouTubers like Emily Hayward, Daniel Thomas, Claire Wineland, The Frey Life (Mary Frey), and many others. Why should you watch someone with a terminal illness? Why should… Continue reading Value Your Life
This might not apply just to me but I'm going to act like it does because I can only ever speak for myself. When I say I'm not depressed, I mean a lot of things. I'll list them out, then we'll jump into it. I am not actively in a major depression I may be suffering from a… Continue reading “I’m Not Depressed”
An Open Letter to My Practice: Aikido, Happy 15th anniversary. Forty percent of marriages have ended but we're still together. It's our crystal anniversary. Does that mean that you will finally be clear to me? Unlikely. You're my greatest mystery, my largest enigma and that's just fine. That's you. I remember how we met. I remember wanting… Continue reading Happy Anniversary: A Letter To My Practice
You feel a twinge, maybe a burn. You want to stop but no pain, no gain. Right? Ehh...not so much. When we are working out do we push through the pain? Or do we completely stop? For today, we are going to be specifically talking about yoga today since it is, after all, a Wednesday.… Continue reading Push Through Pain?
It's easier to keep going than it is to stop and start again. The next time you're on your run and thinking about walking for just one second think about that. Think of yourself as a train. It takes forever to get going once you stop. Why is this though? I mean...to start with running and exercise is… Continue reading Don’t Stop Running
Uh-oh...controversial subject. Actually, not even controversial. Absolutely everyone will probably disagree with this statement. Even I disagree with this statement. Then why did I say it? Well, because I don't actually mean you never need a vacation or that you don't need a vacation right now to have fun but I do mean that you don't need… Continue reading You Don’t Need A Vacation
Should I have done it? No. Do I regret doing it? No. Is it important that we break down the stigma surrounding self-harm? Yes. So in my head, what I've done to myself isn't a big deal. My scars have faded quite considerably and most times I've completely forgotten about it. But occasionally, I'll get some… Continue reading “I Don’t Regret Self-Harm”
Running is hard. We know that. It takes effort, our heart rate goes up, our breathing is labored, blah blah. We know that. But what if I said that stopping is the hard part of running? You'd probably slap me and tell me I'm a big fat liar. And I wouldn't fault you for that. Yes, running… Continue reading Break Through The Mile Mark
How am I not dead? How am I not dead? In the last few months, I've found myself stumbling over this question a lot. And it's not because I'm having an existential crisis...been there done that. Everything will end. No, I'm not asking myself that question because I'm in a bad mental state. I'm asking it… Continue reading The High School Experience
I am all right...despite what my words might say or hint at.
So we haven't talked about Buzz the Bee in quite a long time. If you aren't familiar with the little bee behind this blog, Buzz has his own article. He's a special little friend. He's a little buzzing bee that gets in your ear. With him, he brings all the negativity in the world. He's… Continue reading Regroup, Restart
What's my number one problem when people find out I'm an author? They think everything comes from a place of truth, reality. As a splatterpunk horror writer, this should terrify people. Naturally though, people tend to realize I'm not digging up graves and fighting off sex-driven monsters of the beyond. So why, when I write about… Continue reading My Relationship is Fine: Writer Problems
Whoops. Controversial statement over here. There's a reason for it, I swear. Let's think. How often have you heard the term forgive and forget? How many times have you yourself thought it? How many times have you tried to forgive and forget? How many of those times were successful? We are instructed by habits and age-old advice to… Continue reading Forgive, But Don’t Forget
WOAH! Controversial topic over here! But it's not what it sounds like so stick with me. You won't ever be happy enough. Not if you're looking to be happy enough. Or happy in general. It doesn't quite work that way. The latest kick is to embrace yourself, love yourself, and find inner happiness. Advertisements and… Continue reading You Won’t Ever Be Happy (Enough)
Here's some word vomit: I'm not strong enough to face my battles. I'm not strong enough to conquer them. I'm not strong enough to stand on my own two feet and push through the headwind of my struggles. I'll fall to my back with an open, vulnerable belly. I'll fail if I fight. I'm not strong enough to… Continue reading I’m Not Strong Enough
Yep, that picture is definitely of a happy cup of coffee. To me, nothing is better than a cup of coffee. Doesn't even matter if it is smiling back or not because the first sips of coffee are always heaven. But then again, there's something to be said for the warm feeling of a cup… Continue reading Coffee, Coffee, And More Coffee
It started almost one year ago with an injury from an idiot who never apologized. That was the beginning of everything. The injury and everything afterward brought me to my knees physically and mentally. And I am lucky to have been forced to my knees. I'm lucky to have been so broken and so hurt. I'm lucky… Continue reading When What You Love Kills You
Hello! I'm here to talk to you about that thing we know we should be doing but that we most likely aren't doing. Cross-training. And NO I am not talking about Crossfit...that thing that ends up in injury because form isn't the focus. Hopefully, we all know what cross-training is. If not, I'll give you the low… Continue reading Cross-Training
If I had a nickel for every time I heard, "You write so dark!" followed by uncomfortable lectures I would really be rich.